Today I almost forgot whose I am. A new course was added to my course load and I panicked. The course is called Managerial Economics and I have never taught it before. I wasn’t even sure what it meant. So I went to a friend who reminded me that God will not allow us to get in over our head. That I can do this. Still as I went home I was feeling very let down. Then I had a knock on my door and a neighbor invited me for dinner. It was great to leave the work for a short while. We talked and got to know each other better then I asked her how her day had gone and she said she had delivered a baby. I asked if she had ever done that before and found out it was only here that she had delivered. Can you imagine. Here I was worrying about a,course which I can read and stay ahead of the students and she is delivering babies. She told me the outcome is not always good. The clinic where she delivered the baby has limited supplies. In fact last week a mother came who required a cesarean and they had to send her to Kampala because the clinic had no sutures. but there is also no ambulance service. She had to go by public transportation and by the time she got to the hospital it was to late for both her and the baby. Compared to that how can I not trust God for the provision. I must now trust God for my provision of knowledge. Help me to allow God to stretch me even when it seems to hard. Help me to remember whose I am.
Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus;
A month has come and gone in my life since I left for Uganda in March. So much to understand and so much to allow God to do. I believe that had I come a year ago that my ministry would have been thwarted by my own ideas. O those ideas still exist but daily I am learning to crucify self for the sake of the cross.
just to take him at his word.
I have been given many opportunities to study God’s word. From the teachings at the services to the bible studies some impromtu, some scheduled. I am frequently reminded of our calling as Christ’s Ambassadors. So what better way than to invite students into my home.
Just to lean upon His promise
I am also told he will not expect more of us than we can accomplish. So when I was assigned to teach a course I had never taught I trusted God and began to prepare. But my skills were really challenged. So I trusted in God to provide me with what I needed and I was assigned a different course. Not only that but thanks to help from friends in the States I have the materials to teach the course.
Just to say thus says the Lord.
But Lord I cried this is tent making when will I be able to go out in your name? Now I am preparing to go on a mission outreach with members of the Ugandan Anglican Youth Fellowship. So he has brought me here and begun to equip me for service. May I go out in his strength and not my own. May I truly be Christ’s Ambassador. And may I trust in Jesus.
Jesus Jesus How I trust Him
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus
O for grace to trust Him More.
Over the last 20 months I have felt a lot like the people of Narnia trapped where it is always winter and never spring. Not that God has not been present in my life but I often felt I would never get to minister outside the United States again. But for the most part the winter was of my own making. You see God calls us to be faithful not just with our actions but also in our prayer life and in how much time we take to listen. Now as I prepare to leave on a trip to speak at churches and to go for Cross Cultural training I can see as always even the winter was not wasted by God. For each day over the last 20 months gave me new insight into the direction God is leading me. Even the times I did not listen God has used to point out where He does not want me to be. He has also shown me his purpose for my life is not in my control but completely God’s. Each step on the upcoming journey I pray will be in his will and not my own. I pray that he will show me even more of what it means to trust Him. Not just with where I am going but with how I go and with who I go and what I am to take and what to leave behind. I pray that God can show me ways to place complete trust in all the directions and give me the ability not to question but only to trust God for ALL.
Mary’s Blog Bor, Jonglei South Sudan December 27, 2012
So here I am in Bor Jonglei South Sudan (RSS)and the wild west was never wilder. There are cattle in the streets and dust everywhere from the roads which are not paved. At the end of the street is the Nile River which is used for bathing by those who have no running water in their houses. The priority here is to educate the young so they can help build a stronger country.
On Monday the city came alive as the churches march through the streets singing their praise to God. While the city has very rough buildings the people of the churches are dressed in their best to march and announce the coming of Jesus. Each church carried a banner and sang as they went along songs of praise in their native tongue. Children as young as 5 or 6 were marching. Okach Rachel’s son said that as a child he remembered getting in line and participating. The marching continued until 1 or 2 in the morning.
On Tuesday I got up early to visit the celebrations at 3 different churches. First we went to the Episcopal Cathedral where over 3,000 Dinka gathered to celebrate Christ’s birth. After a while we went to other churches including the Anyuak Presbyterian congregation and the Nuer Presbyterian congregation. Both these churches meet under canopies with the sides open. It reminded me of some of the earliest meetings of St. Andrews which was the church of my childhood. We meet under a grape arbor. These people here in Bor are just beginning to build after a long war. Their resources are much but it will take much work to realize the fruits of the Peace.
Today I met the Minister for education for the Jonglei State. We will meet at 3 today to talk about what the vision for education is. The Governor has already made it clear that education is the responsibility of the people in the various towns and villages. Rachel has plans to build a secondary boarding school for girls which will begin to train girls to take positions of responsibility
Please pray that the people of South Sudan will first seek the Face of Jesus and follow in his ways. That South Sudan will work under God’s authority.
Pray that in the midst of such great need, I can listen to the voice of God and set my face toward the will of the One who sent me here. That I will not seek my own glory but to work to glorify God.
Mary’s Blog Dec 11, 2012
I had a lovely visit with my sister and this morning bright and early headed to the airport. After picking up my bags I headed to check in only to be told that I would have to pay for excess baggage despite being told it would not be necessary. I was very grateful that the church had insisted I have money on hand. Father God I give thanks for your provision and for the way you are guiding my footsteps. I am sure that you can handle any circumstance and ask that you will guide my footsteps.
I am currently reading a book on surrender. In the past I would have stewed over the outcome of having to pay for my bags but I know that God is my provider and he will show me exactly what I need and when I need it. His provision is always timed to when it is needed.
In about 2 and ½ hours I will be landing in Entebbe and know he will make a way for me to transport my bags thru security and be on my way to Mukono. I am excited about all he has prepared for this VBS. I continue to ask for the ability to allow God to work in this circumstance. I ask that this VBS be lead not by me but by God and that I can remember to trust him. For this I give glory.